Two more days, and that's it.
Remember how we were taught that TIME IS GOLD or PRECIOUS that sort because we can never turn back time? Well, it took me a while to understand that but humans being humans, we just don't learn.

I have been missing so much, especially this year. Of course, along came some transitions where priorities changed, lifestyle changed... for the better I hope. Made a lot of new friends, whether in terms of hanging out ones or close ones. No doubt, I spent less time with my old buddies whom I used to hang out a lot with. Theres the saying of friends come and go, but every departure leaves an unhappy mark. Just like I was saying, time is the essence.

Overall, it has been a year where I cried alot (for all sorts of reasons), ate a lot (which explains the increasing clothing size), in emo mood for 24/7 and bad health issues. It wasn't that all bad, really. I do believe God has been incredibly kind to me. Admist all the issues, I managed to get employed after university, had a bunch of wonderful colleagues, awesome church with awesome people and of course, the ever great God by my side.

I'm sure it has been either a bad or a good year for many. As for me, I remember the bad memories more than the good ones. I am still going to insists that it was a good year for me. I do need the transition, a whole new life with new friends and workplace. Pondering in the past is good to learn from mistakes, but looking forward is the only way you can make the most of your life.

I do not intend to blog anymore. Many times I got hit back from what I wrote down here. It has been a good blog, where friends that I no longer keep in touch with actually reads my blog, and I am utterly amazed! I like writing, and I tend to write more when it comes to my emotions. Its time to keep such writings in private.

Thank you for all your support in keeping my blog alive by writing in some comments now and then.

Have a great 2009, as I'm sure I will have a blasting good year ahead!

(please be warned)

I want to get a digital camera (finally!).
Am looking at the latest sony. Any opinions on it?

Was fortunate enough to pump petrol at RM1.80/liter today. Hee hee...
Compensated for the last time!

I was driving home today and saw some kids playing at the roadside. Kinda brings me back to the time when I was that age, playing with the kids in the neighbourhood. And during those times, you always seem to favour this one boy whom you always play with. Its funny to think about it, how silly I was to think that we will walk down the altar one day together. *laughs*
Guess thats what you call puppy love, eh?

Talking about dogs, I wanna watch BOLT! And I cannot believe I have not seen it yet! Arghhhhhh...

I am so confused by PTPTN's repayment terms.

Training sucks. It was Rapport Building & Communication. But it felt like "Road to Self-Actualisation". Boring. Alot of psychology talk where they tell you things like "Believe and you will See". Tsk tsk.

I'm broke!!! I need a new working wardrobe!

I am working on Christmas' EVE and New Year's EVE when almost the whole world is on leave. I just hope traffic won't be too bad then.

I am yet to buy and wrap christmas gifts. Not that I do it every year, just that there are too many people I need to thank for the year. Then I think I need to get those gifts for those christmas parties which includes gifts exchange sessions.

Am looking forward to CNY! Miss you guys in IPOH! Can't wait to see you guys again!

*sobs* No wine for christmas this year =(
No christmas log too.

I am joining a gym in January! Why January? Because I need to clear my credit card bills first. And get rid of the stupid Maxis Broadband. And oo oo... I am getting my diving license in JULY!!! Woohoo! One of the things to look forward to in the coming year amidst the ups and downs in the financial market and banking industry. I really cannot imagine how bad it can be.

Okay, I shall stop scaring myself.

My new pair of contact lenses better arrive by next week. I need to claim it by this month. Desperately. I need a pair of shades too. I need to work hard, hard and hard!

I only got two years before attempting masters. I wonder where am I going to find the money for it. Financial freedom! When will you come to me?!

And... I think I have this teeny-weeny crush on someone *blushes*

I have finally rotated to another division. Completing the review before that was a terrible moment for me, especially when the FC is so "friendly" when it comes to answering your doubts. I think I killed a couple of trees those two days. Did a lot of ammendments before finally sending it to branch management, only to discovered a major yet minor mistake. But, not too bad.

I also had some sort of appraisal with my team leader. Every rotation requires the supervisor to comment and also grant some "marks" on the job performance. This rotation, not so good. My marks were low, and comments from TL was pretty upsetting. Probably due to my messed up health, my emotions were overflowing. Imagine, I almost cried in front of TL when she gave her comments. What the...! I am (still) fortunate that I have an awesome senior who teaches me with patience and also always out there to "cover my ass", not to mention a cool and hip TL. I guess, its time for me to realise that life is no bed of roses. Sometimes, its so easy to say such things, but to actually deal with it, its devastating! There is still so much I don't know, and something in my mind keeps telling me that I am not in the right place. To give up, I refuse to. Well, at least not so soon. I cannot be a quitter. I have to keep trying when so many expect so much more from me. At least, show some results before quitting. Its probably a matter of pride, but I do not see anything bad about it.

No doubt, I am upset. And still upset after so many days and events. I really don't know how to improve myself. I feel stupid. ARGH.

Everything is just so messed up. Career, health and relationships. ARGH.

Lets not get to that.

I am dreading for tomorrow to come.

I'm left with two days in the branch attachment. Honestly, am pretty excited to go to one of the support divisions for one whole month. That way I'll be able to understand all the tradelines purposes and functions better. On the other hand, its like a holiday! The bad news is, I have to rush this case of mine, which I finish the first draft two weeks ago. I am left with tomorrow, to at least get it done (which I think its pretty impossible unless I do not steal some time to STONE and leave home by 9pm) and get it approved! As in, at least pass through my team leader and branch manager. Then hopefully, it will reach head office to the approvals and I'll be able to do any more ammendments on wednesday.

But I doubt it.

Its a case on 6 companies in the same group and a highly sensitive industry at the moment. Plus, it needs the approval from HODs of both commercial and corporate banking. And of course, the CEO. *sighs*

I keep getting this:

"You are only 23 years old. You are still so young."

My bad.

It started out innocently with the usual friday night drinks. After a long (& busy!) week, you just feel tired naturally on friday, no? Somehow, I don't know how, I got home almost 11.30pm. Next thing I know, I am out again around 12.15am. Not bad huh, considering I have enough time to take a bath, blow dry my hair and do my makeup. It felt like I was already drunk before drinking any alcoholic beverages. I was so sleepy.

Music was... well, fusion, I shall say. We can hear bits of ABBA and Justin Timberlake every now and then. It was... I do not feel like elaborating it any further.

Then I slept for 4 hours, waiting for the maid to come. She was supposed to be here at 9am. Somehow, it got canceled. Spent the rest of the day doing nothing much till my eyes couldn't open anymore and had a brief afternoon nap. It was a bad nap. I woke up several times wondering abt the Bukit Antarabangsa incident. Then I left for dinner with the guys to KLIA to pick up KINGFU who came back for holidays. He still looks... the same. Skinny as ever. How come I'm never skinnier than ever? Jalan Alor was THE place as we were quite sure he was craving for some local delicacies. Chicken wings. Yummy.

This morning, however, I woke up with swollen eyes. Went church, people did comment on the eyes. ==" And I can still feel the tired-ness from friday night. Can you believe it. Spent the whole entire day with my cell as we have some house blessing thingy. Ate so much and stoned so much. I need to catch my sleep so badly. And I have a movie date in a while more. ARGHHH.

I am getting old! And without stamina.

I was just going through "emily" and discovered how packed my schedule is.
Besides weekdays, which is mostly empty because 5 days a week are given to my worklife.

I am basically pretty occupied for the rest of the year.
Of course, there are still some non-activity friday nights available...

Its odd because I used to dread weekends. Due to certain reasons.
Now, the only thing I look forward to are my weekends!
Its the only time when I get to eat a proper meal with my family, see my friends, have some self-pampering sessions and also shopping.

That reminds me. Birthdays and christmas presents!

I am going to spend my first ever christmas in kl this time. I was given some options such as clubbing, uhm... and clubbing =/
People in kl don't dine?

a friend quoted this,

I think every man is looking for this one girl that would make him a better man.