To wrap up my weekdays for the week... It has been... pretty depressing.
I was kinda upset the last few days over a particular issue. Its weird sometimes how badly you want something, hoping to get something and not getting it upsets you. What is even weirder is when you want that something and you actually got it, you end up being depressed because you don't know how to make a choice.
So you start by doing what you learnt in school or uni. Divide the pros and cons and come up with alternatives and choose the best choice in the end. That will not work because we humans, especially girls, are driven by feelings, strongly. I couldn't sleep, work, eat because distracted by the issue.
The worst part is, you could not even find anyone to talk to! Your best friend? I don't want to stress him out. Your good friends? I don't want so many people to know about it yet. Its so hard to keep it all inside when you are really drowning yourself in sorrows.
Mr Chuah's retirement dinner was alright. The dessert was good, the rest... no comment. Guess the highlight was when the guys went up to sing You're Beautiful by James Blunt. It was so hilarious when they couldn't reach the note. What to do when you are only a GT?
I am actually starting to enjoy my work more now. I mean, people wise. I am starting to get along with most of them better now including my seniors. My boss is like the coolest dude around. Its all nice but... I do not really like what I am doing. I really don't know what to do.
I was kinda upset the last few days over a particular issue. Its weird sometimes how badly you want something, hoping to get something and not getting it upsets you. What is even weirder is when you want that something and you actually got it, you end up being depressed because you don't know how to make a choice.
So you start by doing what you learnt in school or uni. Divide the pros and cons and come up with alternatives and choose the best choice in the end. That will not work because we humans, especially girls, are driven by feelings, strongly. I couldn't sleep, work, eat because distracted by the issue.
The worst part is, you could not even find anyone to talk to! Your best friend? I don't want to stress him out. Your good friends? I don't want so many people to know about it yet. Its so hard to keep it all inside when you are really drowning yourself in sorrows.
Mr Chuah's retirement dinner was alright. The dessert was good, the rest... no comment. Guess the highlight was when the guys went up to sing You're Beautiful by James Blunt. It was so hilarious when they couldn't reach the note. What to do when you are only a GT?
I am actually starting to enjoy my work more now. I mean, people wise. I am starting to get along with most of them better now including my seniors. My boss is like the coolest dude around. Its all nice but... I do not really like what I am doing. I really don't know what to do.
I thk sometimes in life, we gottta make such choices. Hmm...why not really pray over it? I mean as in consistent prayers. God'll lead the way. :) Though it may take time, but be patient and wait upon Him. Plus, u hv till Aug rite? before starting out in UOB. Anyway, was really hoping to catch up with u today. Anyway, do come n visit us again some day ya :) Miss ya n Woon Hui alot! :)
Take care...
hmm..correct me if i am wrong...reading from the above comment, it looks like you have gotten a position in UOB. well, firstly, congrats! though it may not be what you are hoping to hear. anyway, obtaining it is an achievement in itself.=)
life is ironic..we want choices but when we have them ,we despise them.
believe it or not, sometimes we have to depend on gut-feeling. so, follow your heart though it may sound risky.
putting aside the difference in income and maybe the scope of work and the module of training, why choose this company over the other one when all else is the same? an interviewer actually nodded his head when one person answered 'it was a gut-feeling..i feel comfortable working in this place' when every one else tried to give an intellectual answer...(mind you, not every interviewer would approve of this simple yet truthful answer)
well, hope this helps..if it didn't, well, the thought counts and then, just ignore what i said..=p
take care..
regards,
Ai Ling