Yes, I am sad. Not only my emotions but so is my life. At times.

Would things be easier if I look at life simpler? I can have a million things running through my mind day and night but not able to come out with a solution. Sometimes my mind works hard even when I am sleeping!

Nightmares just make you grumpy. I don't know why. I hate having such dreams, dreams that I thought I have left behind long ago. When will they stop haunting me?

I need to feel God's love so much right now. Where is Him when you need Him the most? Standard answer would be: Hes always there, you just have to believe.

BAH. I already knew that answer. I knew it so well till it became like a knowledge. Its like consuming drugs will kill you. Its already something that was planted into the back of your head long long ago. I'll end up rationalizing. Isn't faith something that you cannot rationalize?

So there you have it, the fine line of faith and doubt.

Why can’t that happen?

Why can’t it be easier?

Why must I go through all these?

Am I asking too much?

Guess what I realized in the past two weeks?

My taste in clothes have changed.

Not changed totally, just different. I remembered preparing to go church and open my wardrobe and thought "What can I wear today?"

My going out clothes are so limited! Seriously.

Most of the clothes I used to wear, well, either missing or I just don't like them anymore. What is left probably less than 10 pieces of them.

Now I only buy working clothes. Boring, I know! I so need to get some clothes. At least I can wear them during the weekend. Zzzz...

I got so many stories to tell!!!! But think I'm too tired and slightly dizzy to think. Laters.

I can kill someone right now, with my bare hands.

WHY IN THE WORLD MUST THEY CONDUCT ROAD BLOCKS ON A MONDAY!!!
What a bad way to start the week.

Its all the way jam to work. Nevermind.

Its all the way jam back home too!!!

*screams*

I am feeling so stressed up that I came home, cooked two packets of mee. TWO PACKETS!!! I don't eat dinner usually but now TWO PACKETS! Because I am so stressed up!!! Ended up throwing away some, please don't remind me about food wastage. Then I scooped some ice-cream and I still feel like eating!

Stress stress....

Work in KL somemore la!

VPL... Oh no.

Totally TACKY!

I so need to get a SMARTAG.

I think I need to bring first aid bandage to work. I keep cutting my fingers with the papers.

And I realize how bad I am with the opposite sex. I actually blushed like a tomato. I hate that.

You know you feel like crying

... when that headache won't go away

... when there are so much to do, yet no time!

... when you reach the turning point of your life

... when you just stand amazed at the wonders of God

... when you try slicing onions

... when you are staring at the most beautiful dress

... when lil' children smile at you

... when poor kitty ran flat by cars

... at the thought of your eldest sis getting married!

... when your friends are sad

... when you are broke

... when you listen to emo songs and starts linking them to your life

... when you think of those you have lost

... when you realize how much you miss your best friends

... when you chuck that sushi with lots of wasabi into your mouth

It was a busy week... FINALLY! I had tons of work and I even have to bring some home to do it. No life, I know. But I like the fact that now time in the office pass so fast. Very good. I am highly motivated. I didn't know I am a workaholic *laughs*

So, this weekend is pampering thy-self weekend.

It starts by getting a haircut after I don't know how long... I hate going to the hairdresser's. Then its facial. So I am going to hide myself from everyone else this weekend, just in case something turns out bad. Like my stupid hair now. Stoopid. It looks like shit. Thats why I hate doing anything to my hair.

Oh well, looking forward to Monday. Crazy right, I know. I actually enjoy going work now. But I am awfully broke. I shall stop going for any sales. Perhaps I should refrain myself from getting a credit card too. Sooo sinful!

1. Watch THE DARK KNIGHT.

2. Go AVRIL LAVIGNE's concert!

3. Party...!

4. Go for a holiday. Anywhere. Even if its a one day trip. I just don't want to work. And reminded of work after working hours.

Anyone cares to join me?